something I am trying to figure out

Blissful days with favorites this week. The first of which is books- and one in particular that has been stretching my thoughts. The second, my Maryland friends who know my knots and tangles. [Moments] like dobbing on our "European" picnic dusk at the baseball fields, sleepovers and joyful laughter, quiet conversations of truth and faith and doubt and wonder, finding treasures & Pocky at Asian markets, coffee & light rain on the patio of the Poor House, eating Thai at deserted restaurants with friendly owners, sleepy movie time, and pleasant car drives with summer warmth blanketed by beautiful music, and reading stories which perfectly sum up our friendship.

But, another thought has been dogging me lately... It seems so often we can only speak about God in cliches, in similies and metaphors instead of experiences. I want to know God in a way where I can express ideas and thoughts- without a language made of rhetoric, without a language s dressed up in religious garbs, I want to learn this language of the present - of Him "moving into the neighborhood." Fresh like the first bite of summer melon on the hottest day. mint thoughts. Something new, something that comes from prayer, something that blooms each day. Words that come from knowing God, words that are a new song, verbs that are to be that end in -ing, present tense.

God is near. God is - inside, without.
God is beyond, above, before, after, beginning at the ending, ending at the beginning,
outside. unlimited. utterly apart. He is.

I am frustrated by my limitations of grasping Him. He can not be fully known, and yet it is His nature to reveal Himself, to be known, and yet, to ever be mystery. I want to know God and Jesus Christ whom He sent and the Spirit was given me for this very purpose.

new words.
new understanding.
comes s l o w l y.