because I didn't feel like myself yesterday

and tonight I do.

"If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don't write, because our culture has no use for it." - Anais Nin

i want to be taken seriously.
not a replacement, not a consideration.
earth-shattering romance.
if i fall in love at all, i want it to be a steamroller.
i want it to flatten my fears
lay flat my insecurites
and steam right past them
I want to thresh them out on the floor
a love that makes me freer and braver.
bold. breathtaking.
love rich as the oldest wine
deep as the galaxies
scary as hell.
mysterious and invasive.
hide and seek.
love that has no expectation to be the cure,
because we already know the Healer.
love that shares life.
its a high demand, but I wouldn't have any other form.
love that dares to waltz in the field. [claire, you understand.]

but... more than that,
I want to love. till it breaks every selfish bone in my body.